New Year, New Beginnings

If you are one of those people who was relieved that 2012 was over, let me just say that I am right there with you. I am still trying to put myself back together from everything that happened last year. If you have been following my blog for a while, you probably noticed that my posts were often sporadic and sometimes all over the place. I guess they were a good reflection of my life over the past year. I started the year out by deciding to have a website overhaul. Then I moved my business. Then I took the steps to take my business in a completely different direction. I took on way too many projects. I became an exhausted mess, and then I ended the year by having a miscarriage and turning into an emotional wreck.

Right now, I am hormonal, confused about where I should go next in regards to having another baby and even where I want to go with my business. As much as I love volunteer work, I am dropping almost all of it and focusing on things for my kids and for me. I have decided that this year I am going to find a hobby. I have spent so much time focusing on the kids and my business that I really don’t have time for myself. I have decided that I need a fresh start. I need to get myself in order. I need to get organized. I need to stop acting like an old lady and start acting my age! I am going to be 34 for crying out loud, and most of the time I feel like I am past my prime.

Most of all, I just want to wake up in the morning, look at myself in the mirror and say,”Hey Girl, you are awesome!” And I want to mean it. I want to love myself quirks and all, fat and all, just as I am.

What do you plan to do this year? How do you want to see yourself this year going forward? I would love to hear from you!

Adding Color to my world

Today is a big day for me. Today, I am changing my wardrobe. I have been going through a lot of my clothing and getting it ready for the consignment shop and our upcoming garage sale. It has come to my attention that most of my wardrobe is black or dark-colored. While my wardrobe is quite fabulous, as I love being trendy, it also makes me feel like I am hiding myself with all these dark colors. Right now, I am really working on just being comfortable with myself because if I don’t love myself as I am, then it doesn’t matter how much weight I lose. I will never be happy with myself  if I cannot be happy with myself now. For years the dark colors have been my safety net. Even when I was younger and thinner, dark colors were my preferred choice.

So today, armed with coupons and a few ideas, I am off to add some color to my life. My children are coming with me and have been instructed to not let mommy pick up anymore black shirts. Wish me luck! I am gonna need it!