The adventures of the Not-so-super SuperMama
So… Sometimes I like to think that I can do it all. My husband has a job that pretty much leaves me as a single mom most of the time. I started my business a few years ago and am trying to grow it while taking care of everything at home and homeschooling my 6-year-old son. Everyone tells me that I need to slow down, that I am doing too much, blah blah blah. Believe me, I know I am doing too much. The problem is that I don’t know how to stop. So my body decided to do it for me.
I knew I was in trouble a few weeks ago when I started having dizzy spells, but I ignored it. After having a horrible month of sales in February, I have put a lot of energy into making up for it over March and April. I can happily say that I had my best sales month in April that I have ever had. While it looked like sales were doing better in my actual store, I decided I needed to make that happen in the online store too. That probably wasn’t my best decision. I did not ease into it or start slowly. I took off with it staying up late, losing sleep, and using every opportunity I could to work on tweaking the website, submitting it to search engines, researching various things all the while taking care of things at home and at the store which included doing parties as well. In my defense, I just want to do well. This is my baby. I have worked long and hard at it, and I want every aspect of it to do well. After the blizzards in February, I decided that my website needed to perform better because the blizzard made it almost impossible to do any business at the store.
Anyways, I have had heart problems in the past. It hasn’t really bothered me since I was pregnant with my daughter who will be 4 in a few months. I saw the warning signs, and I did not heed them. Well this week, I finally had to stop. My husband and I agreed that I would close my shop until next week. I still went into the shop a few times this week for customer requests, but for the most part, I have stayed at home and relaxed. I would like to say that I have seen the light and will not overwork myself this much again, but I have a hard time slowing down. So this is what I decided to do.
I am going back to the daily schedule system. I am posting a general schedule on the fridge or what we will do on every day of the week. I am going to try to only do certain things, like web work, during posted times. I am also going to find myself a hobby. Maybe I will pick up scrapbooking again. I don’t know, but I am going to find one! I am also going to try to read a book a week. I am a quick reader, and I miss reading for fun.
I really would like to not be such an overachiever, and know I need to take more time to relax. So I am definitely going to try.