So this week has not exactly been an easy week. I was supposed to do the entertainment for the Mom’s Group’s Christmas party and had this really cool sing-a-long planned, but my throat was sore the day of the event and ended up doing a silly story instead and then singing even though my voice didn’t sound that great. However, it was fun. It just wasn’t what I planned.
I had to try to figure out travel plans not only for me, but for my host daughters as well, not an easy task, but yet it turned out okay. Of course, now it is all moot because we are due for a winter storm so I will probably not be going to see my parents tomorrow, but it was a good attempt.
Then there was the fact that I broke my rule about not going out in big public places so close to Christmas because frankly watching people treat each other poorly is not my idea of fun. Yet, the other night, I went out by myself thinking that most people would be in bed so it should be safe because I forgot to buy wrapping paper. Did I run into a boatload of nasty people? Of course I did. However, I also ran into a lot of nice people and had a nice time looking at all the Christmas lights on the way home.
Last night and today, one might think I would be in a miserable mood. Christmas Eve is kind of a big deal in the house. My husband cooks a traditional Polish Christmas Eve dinner. However, he wasn’t there. He is out on the job site. I feel bad for him because he is there, and we are all here. So I came up with a plan. To keep things special here on Christmas Eve, two very dear friends came over for dinner last night. My kids loved having them here. However, so I could include my husband, I decided that we should still do the Christmas dinner that he makes, but we are going to wait until he comes home. I put out the presents from Santa last night, but all of our family exchange presents won’t be given until we have Christmas with my husband.
Today turned out to be rather nice. The kids woke me and the exchange students up early. However, we all took naps. I made yummy yogurt parfaits for breakfast, and then the kids opened their presents. I videotaped part of it hoping to share it with my husband today. However, the internet connection for him is not great, but he will get to see it when he comes home. The kids were so good today, and I must admit that I am beaming with pride over my son discovering a love for Star Wars. Yes, I did play with his toys today, and we had fun with our Star Wars marathon too. I will also admit that it was hard not to get a bit upset with some of my friends today who complained about their husbands or spending the day with extended family when those are both things I wanted. As it looks now, the snow will be cancelling my plans to see family, and the last time I called there this evening, they were all having the family Christmas, but I wasn’t there. Yes, it hurts, but please, do not feel sorry for me.
I am okay with it. I am okay with the simplicity of cuddling with the kids, watching movies, and telling them the Christmas story. I am thankful that I got to see friends last night that I don’t get to see often. I am proud that I stepped out of my comfort zone and went out the other night. I do feel bad for my husband who missed everything today, but I am thankful he has a good job, and I appreciate his sacrifice.
At the beginning of this week, I was worried about all the things that needed done, all the Christmas cards that needed sent (and will be sent on Monday, I swear). I worried how I was going to make things special for the kids today. Yet everything had a way of working itself out after all. I stressed over nothing.
Things have not turned out the way I would have wished, but it has been a beautiful day of celebrating with people I love, and when my husband gets home, I have the plans set so he can have a happy holiday memory too.As my friends, who are Orthodox, told me last night, it is like we are doing Christmas with him, it is just that we are going by the Orthodox calendar with him!
I may not be overflowing with holiday cheer, but I do feel less of a Scrooge. To all of you who celebrate Christmas, I hope your was very merry! I wish you all a Happy New Year too!