I am going to come right out and tell everyone that yes, my husband and I have been trying to have a baby. While some of my friends know this, a lot of my family do not. I know it sounds crazy because my kids are almost 6 and 9. My husband is away so much of the time, and yet I have been wanting another child for a while. My husband and my children have wanted the same. So we decided to try while my husband has been home for spring break up. My husband leaves again next week, and I am not sure when he is coming back home. They are looking at transferring him again, so he has no real schedule, and as you may have already guessed, I am NOT pregnant.
Somehow I figured with him being home for two months that this would be easy. I have so many friends that are pregnant right now, and some weren’t even trying. When I discovered I wasn’t pregnant last month, I cried. Tonight, I had sobbed. I know that this is not over, and that if it is meant to be, it will be. I also know that two months is a short time to be trying. However, the fact that there is no schedule for my husband is starting to weigh on me. I can hope that mother nature is not visiting when he is home, but really I have no clue. I feel a bit heartbroken.
This is what family planning for the Long-Distance Family looks like. I can’t plan around my ovulation schedule. I can just hope that my husband doesn’t come home when I have my period and cross my fingers for the best.
For now, I guess I will just continue to love my munchkins and dote on everyone else’s babies while I keep hoping for another one of my own.