I thought it might be a good time to start writing to my unborn baby. I have so much to say and so many fears, so it is my hope that this will help. If any of you who are pregnant or were pregnant have done this in your blog, please feel free to share links in the comments below.
Hello Sweet Pea. You aren’t even born, and Mommy is putting you in her blog already. We have made it to week 17 together and as I write this, I can feel you moving around. It is one of the most awesome feelings in the world.
So why is Mommy writing you here? Well Mommy wants to make sure she remembers everything this time. While my memory is a little better, there is so much I don’t remember from being pregnant with your brother and sister because of the accident. Everything seems so new. I drive your daddy nuts asking him all the time if the cramp I am feeling is normal. If I was this forgetful when I was pregnant with your siblings and if I will ever have my brain back. (Last time I asked, he said no. Boo.)
I have been able to feel you move for a while but your movements are still not strong enough for Bubby and Sissy to feel. They really try though. You seem to respond to certain music and your sister’s voice. I am hoping that means you like her. She really is a neat kid, when she is not being a stinker. The same can be said of your brother.
I seriously think you and I need to have a talk about this food aversion thing. I am starting to get the feeling that you are a health nut. I mean, I am ok with the meat aversions, but ice cream!!! I mean really. How can you not like when I eat ice cream? It used to be so good, and now it is awful. I am really hoping this is temporary because you are really missing out and evidently making me miss out by extension.
I got to hear your heartbeat last week at the midwife’s office. It was magical. It made me feel a little less afraid. I am sorry I am afraid, and I know it makes it a little harder to try to bond. After losing two before you, I sometimes think my mind tries to protect me. I can tell my belly is getting bigger. I have a picture from the last ultrasound close by, but sometimes it doesn’t seem real. I can’t wait to meet you though, and while I am scared, just know that I love you and am anxiously waiting your arrival.
So you keep growing and kicking. And I will try to write it all down. Only a few more months to go!