New Year, New Beginnings

If you are one of those people who was relieved that 2012 was over, let me just say that I am right there with you. I am still trying to put myself back together from everything that happened last year. If you have been following my blog for a while, you probably noticed that my posts were often sporadic and sometimes all over the place. I guess they were a good reflection of my life over the past year. I started the year out by deciding to have a website overhaul. Then I moved my business. Then I took the steps to take my business in a completely different direction. I took on way too many projects. I became an exhausted mess, and then I ended the year by having a miscarriage and turning into an emotional wreck.
Right now, I am hormonal, confused about where I should go next in regards to having another baby and even where I want to go with my business. As much as I love volunteer work, I am dropping almost all of it and focusing on things for my kids and for me. I have decided that this year I am going to find a hobby. I have spent so much time focusing on the kids and my business that I really don’t have time for myself. I have decided that I need a fresh start. I need to get myself in order. I need to get organized. I need to stop acting like an old lady and start acting my age! I am going to be 34 for crying out loud, and most of the time I feel like I am past my prime.
Most of all, I just want to wake up in the morning, look at myself in the mirror and say,”Hey Girl, you are awesome!” And I want to mean it. I want to love myself quirks and all, fat and all, just as I am.
What do you plan to do this year? How do you want to see yourself this year going forward? I would love to hear from you!



  1. KL
    January 4, 2013 at 6:35 am

    Good on you. It’s easy to lose yourself in every day life and so important to find ways to get back your joy in living and being you. I hope you find the right hobby to start getting back to the you that you used to be. For me, it was pole dancing that brought me back ;)…. just a suggestion!

  2. bearhaven
    January 4, 2013 at 9:14 pm

    I actually had looked at pole dancing as an activity before the pregnancy. That is not a bad idea 🙂

  3. Lu
    January 8, 2013 at 5:00 pm

    Love how you write with such honesty and transparency!

    • bearhaven
      January 8, 2013 at 5:31 pm

      Thank you 🙂

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