I apologize for not posting as much this week. I have spent the week organizing things, cleaning, and taking care of things that I have neglected to do…which also includes doing things for me.
I am still doing a lot of reflection and trying to figure out what all I want to do now with my life. I am 34. I have spent the last few years trying to build my business, blog, and everything. However, now that I am changing the game plan, I am seeing why so many of the things I wanted to do have not worked–professionally and personally.
The funny thing is, I have learned so much in the last few years on what not to do in a business and why as a person, I need to have more balance in my life. I am seeing the past few years as my time in a cocoon. I have spent the last few years yearning to build a successful business but all the while, I took for granted the other things life had to offer. Perhaps, that is why things did not ever work for me like I wanted. However, all this time, I have been learning and growing, and now I am like a butterfly ready to explore the world. I want to see everything clearly with my new wings. I want to show off my many colors. I want to show the world my uniqueness. Most of all, I want to do it with the people I love. I don’t think I realized until very recently just how lucky I am to have so many wonderful people in my life…my friends…my family…my beautiful children…my incredible husband. It is so easy to take it all for granted.
What I have learned most is that I don’t have to be successful to be validated in my existence, and I don’t have to be anything other than myself. No matter whether I am a caterpillar or a butterfly, I am awesome as I am. I am good enough as I am. Sometimes I think it is easy to get caught up in the notion that we have to do x,y, and z to validate out existence. We don’t. We don’t have to follow the conventions of society to be happy. The best things in life are the simple things like the laughter of a child, sitting in the sun, just breathing.
This past week I found myself taking pictures constantly. My daughter asked me why. I told her it was because I don’t want to miss a thing. I want to treasure it all forever. I really do. I don’t want to take things for granted. I am moving forward with my life. My hope is to someday have a successful business and blog. However, it will no longer ever be more important than living my life and enjoying my kids, my husband, my friends, and my family. It kinda stinks that it took me so long to learn this lesson, but I am glad that I learned it at 34 and not at something like 60, when it might be too late.
What have you done this week to just breathe? Have you ever had a moment in your life where you feel like you have transformed?