I want to bring villages back. I want mothers to know that it is okay if you are not okay. I want people to know that we do not all feel the same way as someone else in the same situation because we are all different. Most of all, I don't want others to be like me, to be so broken and alone and not know who or where to go to for help.
If you have suffered an infant loss or miscarriage. Please know you are not alone. Please know that while it is hard and while some people may not understand or support you, it is okay to grieve. It is okay to feel however you need to feel and for however long you need to feel it. This is not something that is often talked about. In fact, I didn't know how many of my friends had miscarriages until I started talking about mine. That is why I have talked about mine so much. I want people to know that it is okay to grieve for the child you didn't get to know. It is okay to miss that child and wonder what might have been.
One question I have been asked is why I talk about my miscarriages or write about them at all. Sometimes it is therapeutic, but mostly it has a lot to do with the fact that people don't talk about it. It's almost like we are supposed to keep quiet about it, pretend it didn't… Continue reading Why I chose to write about my losses
Yesterday I got the mail, and there was a catalog for planning a child's first birthday. While I still think about the babies that I will not be able to hold in my arms, I have gotten to the point in this pregnancy where I am really starting to finally bond with the baby I… Continue reading Why I won’t be shopping the maternity store
I thought today would be different. A year after you have gone to heaven, I thought perhaps I would be pregnant or have a baby now. Right now, I will admit that the hope for that is low. However, I wanted you to know that we miss you. We think about you often, what you… Continue reading My Dearest Luk,
I had plans originally for a different topic for Mommy Monday. However, a lot has happened here in the past few days that I thought I would share with you all, if nothing else, just to try to make sense of my life right now. Today, I had planned to tell the whole world what… Continue reading Broken
My son and I made a pinky swear pact tonight (so you know it is serious). We decided no more McDonalds. We are not fast food people normally. Once in a blue moon I will have a craving for McDonalds. Our family has actually been eating pretty healthy for a while now. I cut out… Continue reading To Feel Like Myself
Today a package arrived with the mail. With it being close to Christmas, my kids were all excited it was for them. It wasn't. It was the maternity clothes I ordered a while back. It was if they came today to taunt me. I was doing so well this morning. My son eagerly grabbed the… Continue reading What do I do now?